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you think you're ready for goodbye,
but you know the memories can't lie.
playing some god-damn coldplay
makes me reminisce the times we swayed
and when james blunt's voice starts to linger
brings me back to our first days, it figures
every tune and note... every f&*king poem i've ever wrote
all the kodak moments, feels like a heart-aching condolence
an empty void, waiting to be filled.

Fashion Survey :P

Definition of your fashion style
to quote this month's teen vogue, i'm a little 'i-wish-i-was-in-paris-chic', sometimes geeky androgynous, and overall try to be classy-not-trashy.

Your favorite fashion items
im in love with chanel, i wouldn't trade my chanel sunglasses and black classic chainbag for anything else..

Fashion stunts you'll never do
i cannot go all-out like imogen heap or cher during her heydays..

Your past fashion mistakes
dressing up like i just came out of a 50cent music video: either very gangsta or rather hoochie
*i shudder if i think about those days...*

Your definite fashion icon
i love rachel bilson, she's managed to create sweet with sophistication... never have i seen her on the worst dress list.

The most overrated fashion icon
Sienna used to be all the hype but now i guess the tables have turned?

The fashion items that you'd like to buy
Anya Hindmarch 'Be A Bag', Patent Red Peeptoe shoes, a Band-shirt from Junk Food-preferably Blondie ;)

The fashion items that you recently bought
a purple Ed Hardy tshirt, and a lightpink Junk Food tshirt, a long and yellow cardigan from Mango, and a hot pink cardigan from Zara.

count your blessings

I cannot see my blessings.
I acknowledge it's existence yet it is hollow in my mind.
Be thankful, Kemi.
I still cannot.
When will I ever be satisfied with what I've got?
Humbleness is not within me, Shallowness is what has gotten the best of me.

counting 1..2...3...
4...5...6...7...8...9....
blessings.
10..11....12....13...14...
i've got more than enough to live a happy life.
but why, oh why,
does happiness seem like a distant fantasy?

PURPLE BRAIN.

Your Brain is Purple

Of all the brain types, yours is the most idealistic. You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense. Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries. You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.

What Color Is Your Brain?

i don't know what i can save us from?

feb 19/20:

embalm me in your tears, for that shalt be the
key to prevent my heart from decomposing.

stabbed in the brain and ready to go

i'm tired.
simply fatigued from all these inner complications.
my idealism. rock solid, frozen like ice.
am i unable to melt it, to gain acceptance in this society?
yet questions lurk in the corners of my head.
is this truly what i want to associate myself with?
a society that glitters with glamour, heats with drama,
yet rattles its hollowness.
i then run.
i run away from my own fear,
a fear of unrealistic expectations and unaccomplished ambitions.
what is it that i want? what is it that you want from me?
i eat off your admiration, i breathe from your envy.
i gain power from your incompetence...
i live off of your wish to be me.

i wish you wish to be me.

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Todays Downloads....

1. Goldfrapp - Fly Me Away
2. The Youth Group - Forever Young
3. Gym Class Heroes - Cupid Chokehold
4. Sophie Ellis Bextor - Catch You
5. The Shins - Caring is Creepy
6. Shitdisco - Reactor Party

today; family gatherings. tightening ties with relatives.