PROSE before ho's

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2007-03-27T15:15:00.000-07:00

you think you're ready for goodbye,
but you know the memories can't lie.
playing some god-damn coldplay
makes me reminisce the times we swayed
and when james blunt's voice starts to linger
brings me back to our first days, it figures
every tune and note... every f&*king poem i've ever wrote
all the kodak moments, feels like a heart-aching condolence
an empty void, waiting to be filled.

Fashion Survey :P

2007-03-14T04:13:00.000-07:00

Definition of your fashion style
to quote this month's teen vogue, i'm a little 'i-wish-i-was-in-paris-chic', sometimes geeky androgynous, and overall try to be classy-not-trashy.

Your favorite fashion items
im in love with chanel, i wouldn't trade my chanel sunglasses and black classic chainbag for anything else..

Fashion stunts you'll never do
i cannot go all-out like imogen heap or cher during her heydays..

Your past fashion mistakes
dressing up like i just came out of a 50cent music video: either very gangsta or rather hoochie
*i shudder if i think about those days...*

Your definite fashion icon
i love rachel bilson, she's managed to create sweet with sophistication... never have i seen her on the worst dress list.

The most overrated fashion icon
Sienna used to be all the hype but now i guess the tables have turned?

The fashion items that you'd like to buy
Anya Hindmarch 'Be A Bag', Patent Red Peeptoe shoes, a Band-shirt from Junk Food-preferably Blondie ;)

The fashion items that you recently bought
a purple Ed Hardy tshirt, and a lightpink Junk Food tshirt, a long and yellow cardigan from Mango, and a hot pink cardigan from Zara.

count your blessings

2007-03-10T02:25:00.000-08:00

I cannot see my blessings.
I acknowledge it's existence yet it is hollow in my mind.
Be thankful, Kemi.
I still cannot.
When will I ever be satisfied with what I've got?
Humbleness is not within me, Shallowness is what has gotten the best of me.

counting 1..2...3...
4...5...6...7...8...9....
blessings.
10..11....12....13...14...
i've got more than enough to live a happy life.
but why, oh why,
does happiness seem like a distant fantasy?

PURPLE BRAIN.

2007-02-28T09:17:00.000-08:00

Your Brain is Purple

Of all the brain types, yours is the most idealistic.
You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense.
Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries.

You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.

What Color Is Your Brain?

i don't know what i can save us from?

2007-02-19T17:04:00.000-08:00

feb 19/20:

embalm me in your tears, for that shalt be the
key to prevent my heart from decomposing.

stabbed in the brain and ready to go

2007-02-01T04:32:00.000-08:00

i'm tired.
simply fatigued from all these inner complications.
my idealism. rock solid, frozen like ice.
am i unable to melt it, to gain acceptance in this society?
yet questions lurk in the corners of my head.
is this truly what i want to associate myself with?
a society that glitters with glamour, heats with drama,
yet rattles its hollowness.
i then run.
i run away from my own fear,
a fear of unrealistic expectations and unaccomplished ambitions.
what is it that i want? what is it that you want from me?
i eat off your admiration, i breathe from your envy.
i gain power from your incompetence...
i live off of your wish to be me.

i wish you wish to be me.

topdownload

2007-01-14T05:55:00.000-08:00

Todays Downloads....

1. Goldfrapp - Fly Me Away
2. The Youth Group - Forever Young
3. Gym Class Heroes - Cupid Chokehold
4. Sophie Ellis Bextor - Catch You
5. The Shins - Caring is Creepy
6. Shitdisco - Reactor Party

today; family gatherings. tightening ties with relatives.

strike a pose! it's 2007

2007-01-02T05:01:00.000-08:00

*pictures was suppose to be here but the image host was crap and now i cant upload pics either so lets wait until i get a stable internet connection*

[new years @ moi's]

New Years Resolution
.......i don't have one, really, except for trying to be a better person in this world.
*cough, cough*
oh, and maybe you can pitch in about getting better grades next semester (cum laude if possible) and managing money more wisely. Oh! And being a tad bit tolerant on some matters. (a.k.a, stop being such a condescending idealistic bitch) one more.. minimalize on the anti-socializing.
okay, i guess i got it all down...hehe.

surrendering to Anya Hindmarch

2006-12-29T10:12:00.000-08:00

Once again, my "rock-hard" idealism has disappointed me.
I have, once again, surrendered to mainstream indonesian fashion trends. First it was the ballet flats (its variety of colors and designs have melted my cold heart). now, it's the Anya Hindmarch bags. Its been almost 2 years since the start of the trend, yet, after years of rejecting the idea of having a picture of yourself on a bag, I have now finally accepted the fashion phenomenon with arms wide open. Whilst others are seemingly growing tired of their bags, here I am, pondering on ways of getting the bag, comparing prices, and, deciding which design I should take. Cat, dog, cow, be-a-bag... just buy me one and I'll shut up.

2006 roundup.

2006-12-28T08:03:00.000-08:00

6 countries; netherlands, belgium, france, indonesia, malaysia, singapore
5 concerts; infadels, gem, benny rodriguez, we are scientists, groove armada
4 weddings; mbak tania, mbak ayesha, kanya, karim-ditha
3 designer bags; gucci (monogram), chanel (black chainbag), guess (denim + white)
2 universities; hanze university groningen & monash university malaysia
1 boyfriend; sidharta surya kusnanto.

i've found my darkness

2006-12-15T10:24:00.000-08:00

and, once again
he escorted me to find my darkness.

a long, wispy trail of ever-blinding doubt.
nothing to soothe the sorrow,
everything to ease the pain

he turned and whispered goodbye to my demons.

and they shook him out of their memories,
found triumph in battling my woes
yet plunged me deeper into dreams of darken fairies

i've let the darkness take over me
and, once again,
it had me completed

posted on a weary autumn night

kemi and the oh no's

2006-12-08T19:48:00.000-08:00

the oh no's:
1. Anyer trip vs. Cousin's Wedding, the showdown.
2. The rejected offer, the Metro TV edition.

the oh yes:
1. Eda and Lia's Jakarta trip
2. My dream come true: black chanel chainbag

oh, buggers.

24% nerdy, 76% trendy

2006-11-30T05:05:00.000-08:00

You Are 24% Nerdy

You're a little nerdy, but no one would ever call you a nerd.
You sometimes get into nerdy things, but only after they've become a part of mainstream culture.

How Nerdy Are You?

im only 24% nerdy? my boyfriend would be so embarrassed.

24/7 weekend people

2006-11-26T09:54:00.000-08:00

today,
i completed one of my responsibilities as a citizen of a democratized indonesia.
i took a part in the provisional elections for my dear hometown.
(cough, as much as i usually declare myself as a true jakartian, my house is indeed within the boundaries of banten province)

in other news...
a riot consisting of a large group of civilians, in an angry protest against the loss of their chosen candidate for the provisional elections, ruined the structure of the city hall (where the elections took place) in lombok, indonesia.
i guess that just shows the mentality of indonesians: they are sore losers.

[yesterday]
was a great saturday night. after a long day of following the parents around (Er...), i caught up with my mates and found that an impromptu highschool reunion was taking place in scoops, kebayoran baru. then a number of us continued the night in shisha cafe and ended it in circle k. it was great seeing all of you :)

oh, and happy 16 month anniversary. congrats, within each day you are just setting off another record for me :)

trend-spotting

2006-11-21T21:14:00.000-08:00

yeah! i've gotten 2 peeps to move their blog to blogspot. all hail the power of "the trend!"
welcome, patito: patitokahlo.blogspot.com and nomi: utopia-nomi.blogspot.com
in other news,

Bush's arrival to the Bogor Presidential Palace (which lasted only uh... 6 hours) did not end in any violence (except if you count the numerous demonstrations, anti-bush protests, and bomb threats, but hey, those are as ordinary today as white rice to an indonesian meal)
Mini beijing reunion! yihi =D
(apologize for the big-ass size of the pictures. the internet here is so crappy its hard to resize it :( huhu)

recaps

2006-11-19T23:03:00.000-08:00

since the bloody desktop died on me (see, my beloved laptop would never do that to me!), i will have to rewrite this post. DUH!

singapore, 13-16 november
shopping, shopping (orchard road - far east plaza), taking pictures, shopping (little india - mustafa), minimal sightseeing, clubbing (clarke quay - ministry of sound), shopping (orchard road - the heeren), tasting local delicacies (old changkee, es potong, mos burger), crying over chicks on speed, having loads of fun :)
(for more pictures: http://scharahap.multiply.com/photos/album/33)

jakarta, 18 nov- february
day 1: arrival at 7pm WIB. chitchats in McDonalds. more chitchats while awaiting father's arrival from Medan in Afung. Left airport at 11pm. arrived home in Cinere around midnight.
day 2: lazy sunday afternoon. went to mousche salon with father. i got my bangs cut. father and mother loves it. went to prasetya mulya and met tata, audy, jidat, cek, kakek. they hate my haircut. went to pim2; ate in the food court and chilled at coffee bean. bought krispy kremes.
decided i will have to stick with my 'love-it or hate-it' bangs until it grows out.
apparantly the cosmos is making it difficult for me to upload a picture of my new bangs. sorry then, til next time :P

c'était mon anniversaire

2006-11-04T19:23:00.000-08:00

(@ Lecka-lecka, Bukit Bintang)

birthdays are so overrated.
so today (Nov. 04) I turned 19 (the big one-nine, the final year before reaching adulthood)
yet after reaching a certain age, you start to lose that giddiness of being older, a special feeling of having a special day and of course, lesser presents. You wait the whole year for this one day, but once the day arrives, you are just confused on what to do. It seems irrelevant to hold parties anymore, and yet everyone you know just keeps on pestering you.
aah, birthdays.

midnight procrastination

2006-10-27T06:46:00.000-07:00

food intake: famous amos soft cookies
drink intake: water
song played: muse - starlight
song favored: late night alumni - empty street

1 down, 1 more to go.
Yesterday I had my COM1020 (Intro. Communication Studies) exam, which went quite well.
Whats left is Wednesday's INT1020 (Contemporary Worlds 2) exam, which I'm ever-so dreading. Dreading with a capital D.
I predict this weekend to be boring. Everybody is pretty much studying for their exams... and money's tight. OUCH.

I don't know what else to say. I know, I know, I'm hell BORING.

All in a day's work.

2006-10-04T09:03:00.000-07:00

Shopping findings, horray! I <3 One Utama!

Item #1:
Black Tshirt + Black Satin Scarf
(Forever 21)

A few days ago ive come to realize that a black shirt is an essential, just like its counterpart, the everso favorite white tshirt. Yet, I intentionally was looking for a black polo, and figured since forever 21 didnt have any, why not just get the shirt instead? it's quite versatile anyway.

Item #2:
Black Suspenders
(Fourskin)

I've been hooked with suspenders since browsing the photos from facehunter.blogspot.com; and finding a pair in P&Co. (out of all places) which was hooked on a pair of slightly dissapointing short shorts. Then I thought to myself, "This would be cute on normal shorts" and ran off to find Astried.

Item #3:
Navy Blue Jumper
(Forever 21)

When I look at it, I feel guilty. I have a short sleeved blue jumper that I bought from Topshop, preferably from the "Buy me now!" rack, only for RM 50, which I now terribly regret buying. This jumper kicks that jumper's ass, why? because of the buttons! look at the beautfiul collar.. who would say no to that??

tiny regrets:
1. Not getting the Minz earrings. But what else could I do? I didnt have 80 RM on the spot.
2. Not getting to take a picture with DJ Blink. What could I do? He just passed by like that.
3. Not getting to walk into ZARA. What could I do? If I used cash, I would've been broke. If I used my card, I would be taking advantage of my parents. SIGH.

Conjunctivitis

2006-10-03T10:02:00.000-07:00

my left eye, is swollen.
my right eye, is itchy and im afraid, might be swollen as well by tomorrow
the causes of my swollen eyes are still unknown.
some say it is allergies
some say it's baccteria
some say it's a stye
i think it's this.
but whatever it is, if by tomorrow is still there,
there goes my "accompanying-izuan-to-buy-his-girlfriend-earrings-and-maybe-stopping-by
-forever21" day.
sigh.

the day before

2006-10-02T07:50:00.000-07:00

I SHARE A BIRTHDAY WITH ANNA WINTOUR.
well, okay, so maybe her's is on the 3rd, and mine is on the 4th,
and she was born 38 years before I was
but hell-o! we're both scorpios.
this is great. just great =D
what a way to pop my blog's cherry huh?